my life is weird right now.
I'm in a state of disillusion which I believe I need someone in my life. I feel kinda alone, yet full of people who love and care about me. Why would I feel this way if I'm full of people who care about me? I mostly think it's because I am admonished myself to believe that I need someone; Someone who will surprise me, respect me, cherish me, push me, sleep next to me, and be my best friend.
I'm hopeless, a bit sad and discouraged.
My brain hurts.
